Bersabar & Bersyukur

When people expected you to achieve something, you don't know whether to be flattered or nervous or scared. It's a mix feeling. But for me sometimes it can lead to a real pressure. Especially when you don't actually achieve them. Kinda embarrassing and sad. A drop of tear might accompany the frustration.

I experienced this kind of feelings as early as seven years old. People expect me to get great results. When I enter any competition, they expect me to win. Then, get flying colours in big exams. "Alaaa, lainlah awak, awak sure dapat result ok nya." "Awak takpe, mesti ok nya result nanti". Later, I was expected to be accepted by any boarding school. Then a good university. Then get a good job. In between they expected me to have a partner. "Eh, takkan takde lagi kot. Tipulah." Hmmm. Scary movie jugak lah. Hehe.

Anyway, despite of feeling pressure and nervous and all, when I look at another view, I can see all those expectations actually some kind of encouragement, support me all the way to be a better person. To improve myself. Both duniawi and akhrawi. So, when I fail to reach people expectation or my own wish/hope, a little upset of course (sure ke a little. hehe) but thinking of all other gifts that Allah gave to me, which is uncountable, it helps to cure the sadness, encourage to be more patient and most of all, Alhamdulillah, be thankful to Allah. Terima kasih Ya Allah atas segala anugerah yang engkau curahkan ke atas hambaMu ini.

*Waiting for another shot. Hope to be under shortlisted. :)

CNY & Bowling

Menghitung hari, Detik Demi Detik.. Rabu, Khamis, Jumaat, Sabtu, 4 days to go. Cepatlah Sunday. Few asked why Sunday not Friday ke Saturday ke. Ermm..Actually memang nak balik awal but tak sampai hati nak keluarkan extra RM 200 for ticket. Huhu. Terpaksalah balik lambat sikit.

Tak sabar nya nak bercuti kat kampung. Pastu nak ajak ayah teman training bowling. Kata ada bowling competition on 20th Feb ni. Ingat last time training for the same competition few years back. After gi makan2 kat dusun Sems, terus gi training. Semangat betul. Tapi asyik aim ke longkang je. Haha. This time apart from ayah n emi, I have another sifu to coach me but so far no progress yet. That's ok. Kalau tak sempat, kat Kedah, training abis abisan lah. Yo o je. Sekali lepak kat tasik, tgk movie (kat rumah using projector like last time), reading novels je. Haha. We'll see.

Eh lupa pulak. For those yang would love to see a dolphin plus try to touch them should try to go to dolphin exhibition kat next to new wing at Sunway Piramid. Adult RM 50 but if you spent at Sunway Piramid you got a discount of 30%. If you're not spending anything but you have my kad, you got 20% off. If I'm not mistaken, to take pic with the cute dolphins, you need to pay extra RM 15. Well, since one of my dream is to touch a dolphin, I think I'm going there soon. InsyaAllah. The show will end on 31 March 2010. Sempat lagi guys ;)

Last weekend, since tak jadi main bowling n gi tgk dolphin, I managed to do some shopping which I wished to do for quite some time. I went shopping with Along. Just the two of us. Dah lama kitorg tak keluar sama. Kewl jugaklah :). I managed to get a new pair of work shoes. Along lak bought Isyia nye swimming suit. So the next day, us three went to swim. Isyia apa lagi. Happy lah! But we cab't rendam her lama2 dlm air. So, about half an hour je we all main air. Later that evening, me and Along time again went to fix our hair. Last time we got a bad hair cut from this kedai. So, we went to our usual kedai to repair balik. Note: Next time, pegi jer kedai yg dah biasa pegi even though if its a little bit far. Huhu.

Okies till next time. Goooooooooo Bowling. Haha.

Pening

This morning, bangun je tadi kepala terasa pening. (not sure pening kepala or sakit kepala same like cannot differentiate senak n sakit perut). Yang pasti my head rasa macam ada something block. Sebelah kanan especially. Been up for two hours now and the headache tak nak hilang. Is it because the way I woke up i.e. too sudden. Or is it pasal masuk angin? Ntah lah. But cepatlah hilang. Huhu. Panadol? Macam tak best je.

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1st Feb 2010. I managed to do it as plan. Now all I have to do is to wait for the reply and pray for the best. I know I have to deal with this now or later. Bismillahitawakaltu'alallah.